i hear the radio on, singing you

I just realised i have a very overdued birthday post.

About 3 weeks ago we had suprise party for Rachel.
No actually the mother nicely planned everything and was so nice to invite a few of us over there to be a part of it :)

The best part was that a whole Lok Lok truck was rented for our eating pleasure ok!
Non stop supply of all you can eat Lok Lok!

Right after that we headed over to Kay’s for her belated birthday gathering.
It was all so happened that it fell together but it was fine :)

I slept over as i remembered.


Pictures all credited to Lynette.

Big pretty cake with super cute candles;
Note to friends: I want these candles that spell my name on my birthday ok!

Kay's

everyone minus rachel who was late because she was still at her own party.

i remembered losing

BTW;
I wished I could change that.

this is how i feel

On a dull Friday (which feels like a Monday-why?) i feel stoned.

I am in need of a BBQ gathering.
& I miss Sunway Lagoon. Ive been going to Sunway Lagoon at least once a year my whole life.
I want I want I want.

I have English Oral next week in which I am a little scared for.
A 7-10 minutes talk that carries marks and we have to use power point in which I HAVE NEVER USED BEFORE in my life.
I am planning to youtube “PowerPoint Tutorial” as we speak.

a Math test next sat;
Then
Econs and Accounts the week college reopens after the mid sem break.

& we haven’t even got back our econs paper for the first exam.

I quite like how the frequent exams keeps my pace to doing work.
I am proud I got 99% for Maths and 94% for accounts.
Beams beams beams.



Speaking of,
SPM RESULTS IN TWO FRIGGIN WEEKS.
Where has time gone to !
Although the results somehow feels like it doesn’t matter anymore since college has started, it still has somewhat in some way have this strong alluring power that makes you care all the more.

I am excited to see old friends in school on that day itself.
& see how 3 months of no school has made us change. Physically, mentally.

But,
I am awfully scared of the outcome, of the lining up, of wondering what is on that low quality paper.

I have no idea why, but i cried during PMR results.
Before i even got the paper.
I balled my eyes out after i got the paper and some parents looked at me as if i failed all my subjects.

Can you imagine the condition i’ll be in in two weeks time (?!)

Sadly this time, my sis would be in Singapore that time, my mom working; unable to apply for leave.
Which only leaves my dad to wave pom poms for me in the back ground.
I don’t know about you, but i wished they all could be there to witness what will come.

BTW;
"Are you the Hitz.fm fugitive?"

I think this picture is ultra cute (!!!)
NOTE; Rachel who is already taller than we, is wearing heels in that picture. SIGH.

picture credit to Rachel and celup from Kay's.

sighs

I feel so jinxed right now.

in short i gained RM5.80 by mere luck.

but had my car blocked at the parking lot and bird poop because i parked under a shady tree.


Still worth the RM5.80,


hardi harhar


pictures from yesterday;
more from Rachel's cam.

Kay

Rachel

Rachel & Sueen

BTW;
I hate it went its just that 10cents

what about now?

I finished my class at 11am today (!!)
ONLY today though, so I met up with Rach and Kay and then came Sueen!
Like a primary reunion :) just that we are secondary mates as well.

We have been meeting up more than we have had back when we were in secondary.
Maybe because the thought of knowing that your friends are near (although some not in the same class) isn’t that much a difference cause they are somehow always just there.

Im glad that Ive been seeing my secondary friends on a frequent basis;
So far weekly and it’s not sketched or pre-planned,
but just happens.
One of my resolutions was to keep close friends at heart no matter how many new friends ive found.
Im glad im keeping up to that currently.
Eventually i know we’d somehow stop finishing each other’s sentences and stop knowing what we’re thinking simultaneously but Id like to think that we’re making full use of time while we still can.
Im glad we still have to urge to meet each other.
Fingers cross.

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I have tired eyes and heavy lids although i get sufficient sleep.
VERY much sufficient.
But im so alert and watchful mentally i bet i could hear a pin drop while sleeping.

I have been recently craving for weird varieties of food like a pregnant woman.
Right now I want waffles.
Yes! Tomorrow will be a good day for waffles :)

Its 10.11pm and the night is still young.
Time to happily indulge in my book.


BTW;
Taken from The Pact;

That a lie which is half a truth is ever the blackest of lies;
That a lie which is all a lie may be met and fought with outright;
But a lie which is part a truth is a harder matter to fight.

- Alfred, Lord Tennyson

any better

It feels like a painful/liberating week all the same this past
If that made any sense at all.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

I have been hit by the sour bug again.

I feel emotional and right when i shut my eyes and imagine you at the other end,
You are but not exactly where i left you.
You are much further away.




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It was family day on Sat as we went to the club where i grew up in.
Everything the same, just older people.
& no more kids i grew up with because we all went our separate ways. Sniffles.

Infact today was also a family day.
& Ive finally picked up my half read book and i have no idea what made me stop because its SO good. I didn’t even have time to finish my study plans. Guilty.

Tomorrow will be a happy jolly day with two girls.


:)

BTW;
What would you do?

come so far

I dumbly realised my laptop has a built in webcam so haha.
I mean i knew lah, but heh.
Why take the trouble of transfering pictures!
:P


I watched Changeling, Revolutionary Road and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button within this 2 weeks!I bought (super clear) DVDs for those three.

I hate it when they throw all the good stuff together.
& there come a time where there is NOTHING to watch in the cinema.
Ive yet to watch Valkyrie and Slumdog Millionaire which i am super (!!!!) excited to watch.

I watched the first 3 on my trusty super clear DVD.
:D
I found Changeling boring. I probably expected much more out of it.

But Revoluntionary Road and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was tres tres good!
If you'd like those kind of movies.
Naturally I dont enjoy (most) comedy type movies.
I like mind boggling, heart felt, classical movies.

I think i like The Curious Case of Benjamin Button better though.
Prepare to shed tears.

Still I am super excited for Slumdog Millionaire and I know it wont disappoint me !


Happy sighs :)




Just came back from a group visit to Mrs Ow's. :)
She's our accounts tuition teacher back in secondary school and we love and miss her THIS much we decided to pay her a visit, just as we always wanted to :)
We went into the house with the familiar aura, invaded her form 5 class that finished at 10pm, sat on the familiar chair around the familiar table. :)
It felt as if nothing changed at all.
the 7 of us just talked to her for almost 2 hours.
& we would definitely be back to visit her cause she is without a doubt the best teacher!

Thanks Wai Hong for the ride!
Finally its not so hard for Kota Kemuning/Bukit Rimau people to hang out anymore.

BTW;
I never hung up on you

too much words

I feel really relieved after today.
Sighs happily.
Now just 2 more weeks before my English Oral assessment and another Maths test.
Actually I have another English assessment this coming Tuesday but its un-prepare-able.
Its called listening. Quite fun but we’ve been doing it for weeks its getting on my nerves.
Still its going to be 10% of my final result so I must not take it too lightly.
After that week its the mid sem break (!!!)

We saw a girl in school uniform in campus the other day and my friend actually said (pretty loudly) “so cute”.
Heh. I think college has made us cocky. Haha.

Thank God it’s (going to be a) Friday. :)

I finally remembered to open my ang pao packets yesterday. HAHA.

BTW;
I barely

I bet if you’d go out of the house right now you wouldn’t even feel a single breeze of air.
The whole world feels so static right now as if we were in a vacuum and air doesn’t exist.
ITS SO FRIGGIN HOT.
I wanna take a bath every 2 hours just to ventilate and cool myself.

Thank God for we have air conds in class.
I don’t think I could ever survive in classrooms with just pathetic fans anymore.
Shrugs

Oh and I am SO relieved that econs test is over! for now.
Just because i never took econs before. phew.
Another maths test before March holidays. (on a sat again) SIGH

You find me mute when I am grumpy.
No questions asked.
I do not like to speak and answer and act as if there is gold in my mouth.
Personally I think it’s selfish of me because it is just unfair for my friends to follow my current.
Though I hope you understand, that’s how I let go of steam.


Things I should be/am happy about;
1) My thoughtful dad who is not like any other dad who leaves me to my own. He is infact the type of dad that gets unhappy when I do not update him on my life or tell him what my day was like.

2) My ever patient mom who bears my unnecessary tantrums and moodswings, who is always willing to hear my gossips. (although sometimes wanting to know too in depth, it gets annoying)

3) My sister who is probably reading this. Thanks for setting such high standards for me to meet ( -_-“ ) I often get asked “Do you have a sibling?” and “What is she doing now”. & there i would go on and on and on telling them of how you manage to get 3 back to back FULL scholarships for Junior College and University (total of 10 years) in Singapore and feel dumb again. Nevertheless I am very very proud of you.

Sidetrack: Remember SPM English essay last year? I chose the topic “Write about a person who worked hard to be successful in life”. Well....... i wrote about my sister. What better story than a true one.
Hardiharhar

4) You.



I realise as this post progresses I have so much more to type but I think I’ll just leave it at that :)

BTW;
That hinted scent makes me smile every time i open the door.

cracks under the wall

Physically, mentally, directly, indirectly,-
I have this things of meditating too much on-various
You and I are different.
& I now know what im truly fervent for.
The inspiring effect after having read what you (plural) have to say in this sort of unknown secret agenda.
Im exploding in so many ways.
Nothing else gets me going.
Not as much.


//
You are like a nutcracker,
Something hidden something ive never seen something mysterious-
There is only so much you can tell me,
So much you can show, so much you can represent,
So much you can surface.
Its like i have to assemble a puzzle with the correct piece of emotions to search for you.
Where are you going?
This is only because you inspire me & I cant comprehend why.

BTW;
Squinting.

bullseye.

:)







all the way from far far far away.
you definitely suprised me.




:)

disturbing

Did i mention i have had awesome pawsome dreams for the last few days?
GOOOOSSH it was so real and i swear i was crazy happy.

Fat chance Jasmine.



Happy pre valentines!

you passed

I got selected to be a part of Sunway’s Student Council.
But i declined.
For many reasons.
It is definitely a waste of course,
and i wouldn’t deny how much I want it too.

Asking people around for opinions didn’t help my decision of course because 100% said i should/should have went for it.
But im sure.
Or so Id like to think.

Knowing me Im not the type that would go down without much thought or without a fight.
Yes I assure you I thought of it over and over again.

After college I met with BRATs buddy Jeremy to discuss our decisions & to catch up.
We’re in the same boat.
We are loaded with gossips of who when where and what.

First exam of the year tomorrow.
And Im looking forward to have a girly night out to celebrate tomorrow’s auspicious (to most) occasion.
I feel happy when it comes to these days of sharing because it gives me a reason to whine about how much I love it.
But it was sad i saw so little people holding roses today.
I remember last year where we had to wrap the roses and get pricked by thorns.
I still have all 6 or 7 (?) from various people from last year.
Valentines is not overrated, it only is if you’d think it’s for couples.
I should stop before i sound like some jealous single person.

BTW;
Im a certified stalker ;)

body and soul

I lack pictures of you in my laptop. haha.

Happy 18th Rachel dearest :)

My ultimate best friend back in standard four.
My quirky happy go lucky friend who gets excited at ANYTHING.


I am sad and emo I couldn’t make it out today with you and others :(
But im sure you’ll have much much fun and a memorable one :)

We must have more outings ok!


Hugs and kisses.
:)

BTW;
I dont feel like functioning right. I just want to do things as in comes.
I want to close my eyes and jump.

its all i know, i found peace when im confused.

stolen from Lynette's.
Han Qi pimpin!

My favourite picture :D from kay's 18th.

Will post on the happy weekend i had :)
asap !

As you know, I like eating the whole chunk of garlic, but i just had a horrible experience.
NEVER have garlic after eating wasabi.
it stings and burns i literary teared. & i can still feel the taste lingering.
gross.

Exam aura is around.
I am not sure if i should be worried or not.
Yes and no.

I'd really like to get over it because there would be something to look forward to once its over.
smiles.

and attention to all ex SPM-ers!
Speculation is that SPM results are out due March 12th.
I doubt the Feb 23 one is true because that would be like in 11 days and we still have no news of it formally.
So do whatever you can before that horrid weds.


ta!

BTW;
stranger to security, affirmity.
i want to crawl out.

im still a rockstar

At last my Microsoft office is working!
RM 300 bucks just for this. & because my notebook doesn’t work with pirated ones.
Pffffttttt (!!!)
2 more pax, feel VERY free to buy them from me. It came 3 in 1.


I am feeling so temperamental (like i already mention 238749823 times).
I think Ive been resorting to only what a girl can do.
Gobble and splurge.
As much as I am trying to save on money because I only get RM 250 a month and I am trying my hardest not to ask for a raise!

Okay let me help you do the math.
Daily meal = RM5
You know lah college food aint friendly.
So per month RM5 X 5 days a week X 4 weeks = RM100.

Parking fee = RM2
Monthly parking RM2 X 5 days a week X 4 weeks = RM40.
Occasional shopping mall parking fee = RM10

Outings which include movies food and sometimes you’d probably buy some other extra in between class snacks etc would probably cost RM100.
Gone!

& somehow God gave me alot of friends that are born within the first 6 months of the year.
$$$$$$$ !

And of course occasionally buying credit because its going down the drain faster than ever these days.

I now regret complaining on how canteen food use to be back then.


Its such a bad year for economic recession.
If I was born a year later i could at least put a year on hold.
Back then everything was all (quote: ) rainbows and butterflies.

Speaking of, my break pad felt a little weird while i was driving this morning, and when i reached college i realised my hand break was up all the while.
Sigh.


I suddenly have a weird urge to go on some merentas desa.

I know, overdue pictures.

Lillian

Lillian, Han Qi & Xin Yi.

in the car while waiting for Xin Yi to pick the pizza

Darren's Goldilock's lookalike house.

Xin Yi, Lynette, Kay, Rachel, Lillian and me

Rabin

then we went to Han Qi's

Lay Wing

& had two tables playing mah jong

and some awesome transparent cards

BTW;
My new resolution is you.