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My current rest-time addiction:
Restaurant City on Facebook!
GAH its so dam addictive for no reason.
All thanks so Chloe for inviting me sigh.
I find myself checking in every 3 hours because my characters will “die” because they will be rest deprived.








I went to the library to do my daily movie browsing in the DVD area and thought i’d check out the featured films that aren’t for home loans.
I found THE MOVIE ive been finding forever (!!!!!)







If you ever read my blog,
Ive mentioned about it once or twice and honestly ive been hunting down this movie for ages.
I saw it once on Disney and fell in love with it,
I don’t understand why they don’t show it anymore!
I cant even download this version of it also (cause there’s a older version made in the 40’s i think)

Its about Helen Keller btw, when she was younger.
The mute, blind and deaf girl.

I cant wait to sit down and watch it asap!
Sadly i cant borrow it home and can only watch in college.
Its in the locked up shelves and stuff and not for people to borrow.
Sigh.
But good enough!

BTW;
i give up

unfettered

2.30am and i don’t know what am i doing here.


I am a stranger to myself
what more to you.

You should know,
Im really really (really) bad at this.

I am not good at unfamiliar territory,
Even; should I try,
I get awkward, uncoordinated and gawky.

I need a push,
I need a pusher.
One that goes push push push.
Until it doesn’t sound/spell right.



It is not time yet,
Not yet, never yet.

im never gonna cut you out

Break from study.
Toilet break.
Computer break.
Webcam break.
:P

maybe i can see your halo

Hello hello.
This week was horrible because i was down with fever and flu on weds but could not afford to skip the next day because i had econs exam plus i needed to take my English assessment paper.

Next week i’ll be having English and Econs exam on the same day (Tuesday)
Awesome lah, its gonna be a long night on Monday.

Today I delightfully helped mom prepare dinner.
I forgot about the little cuts i had on my fingers so while helping her chop the onions and cili padi, the juices sipped into my cuts and now its a teeeeny weeny bit swollen and a heck load pain.
It burnssss.

It sucks that it hasn’t been raining.


Happy Belated Birthday to Sueen!
im so so so sorry i couldnt attend your dinner as much as i miss you and had to miss your traditional celebration.
As you can see above* I was sick and had exam the next day!

BTW;
I dreamt of you again

ive got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth

2 days down, 3 to go.
I usually finish classes at 2.45pm on Fridays but this Friday I have math replacement class at 4pm (considering skipping) AND a 5pm Msian Studies exam.

:(


We’ve signed up for netball for Sunway’s Sports Carnival !
I am actually really excited.
I actually like netball only if i play center or attack.
I hate/suck at defending.
I realise Im playing sports i was never into last time.
Like badminton and netball.
I think im in a transition.
Or maybe im just taking anything that comes my way.
I do miss basketball but everyone is busy/gone/not around on the weekdays/too tired on the weekends. :(
Only leaving me and Kay to “koo leng leng”
Heh.




Not to forget.


Happy Birthday Sista!
You’re 21 and old.
You still hutang me your duty as an older sister since you left Malaysia (quite suddenly) 3 years ago.
I am still not use to being the only child at home and it gets lonely especially when I have to go to those old boring dinners and sit there stoning.
I haven’t fought with you enough at home.
You haven’t teman me to study or accompany me to watch a thriller/horror till late nights enough.
I miss having a movie companion anytime of the day because we have the same movie interest.
I am still waiting for you to fetch me around and buy me things because that is what you should do. (hehe)

I miss you and come back please!

mother, sister, father in messy home faces & attire :P
small celebration about 2 weeks ago when she came back for 3 days.

BTW;
...perseverence, character; and character, hope.
romans 5:4

30 seconds to come back

not too long ago.

It gets hard to meet in big groups nowadays.
I sometimes have to take time to plan ahead to see if my week would allow me to do stuff.
Too many things to do.
Im not use to this transition.
It used to be after-school activites 3 times a week and every sat.

Im really looking forward to a good mid year break.
& hopefully a warm birthday with friends and definitely family.



Im feeling a little down today, and i expect to be this whole week.


Do not expect me to talk much.

sigh.

BTW;
Chinese papers reported a girl (sunway student) got robbed and raped when she parked outside college.
I think its either around food court area or the "jungle" where sunway and monash students park sometimes.
Please be careful !

if you seek amy

I had a good good Friday and this week started well too.
Much better than the previous week.
Maybe because I didn’t want to get disappointed again.

After college I went present hunting (with Darren) for people and yay productive.
I really enjoy giving people although sometimes I am on a TIGHT budget but I always save some room for presents. :)

We had trouble deciding on dinner and miss eating steamboat.
Had everything planned out within 5 minutes and got to indulge on steamboat.
They had an hour or so to kill before going yum cha so they all tagged along to fetch me home.
We ended up camwhoring on the laptop, playing with Panda (my dog) and watching “When a Stranger Calls”.

Test update for the week:
Mon-Math
Tues-Econs + deadline for accounts assignment
Thurs-Accounts
Fri-Msian Studies

& that is because I had an exam free week this past week (after so long).














Ive been eyeing this bottle ever since I saw it about a few months back when it first came out.
I always told myself it was just a temporary high and it was purely impulsive to get it.
Im still not over it, so screw it.
Its the cutest thing I’ve ever seen.
I am secretly hoping no one else has the same one as me but fat chance Jasmine!
I actually made a birthday wish list in my journal (wrote it down the minute i saw it) and this was one of them :P
See how badly I wanted it.











After taking numerous test,
It only boils down to a big d.u.h. of what type catergory I fall in to.
This is my 4th test btw.
Taking it in school, church, college and now on the internet.
There is only until a certain degree that I have to believe i am truly a melancholy.


You are a quiet sort of person who is sometimes very moody. You tend to be very perfectionistic which will cause you to always get things done right but will also stress you out. You sometimes have a hard time getting to know or getting along with people but are very faithful, sweet, and kind once others get to know you. You tend be attracted to Sanguines of the opposite sex.

BTW;
I realise not many people know this so Id thought Id let you know,
If you listen properly to Britney's "If You Seek Amy" you actually get,
"F.U.C.K me"

The part where it goes, 'All of the boys and all of the girls are begging "if you seek amy" '.
Put the other translation and tada.

Did you know?

black dress with the tights underneath

Because i gatal to blog.



Nope the glasses aren’t mine but I think it suits me.


Did i mention i was driving behind Krispy Kreme’s truck that day and almost went ballistic.
I wanted to rob the truck.
I am a HUGE fan of donuts.
I hate noodles, rice is okay but i love dough’s . Gimme anything bread related.
So anyways the truck said Krispy Kremes is only available in Berjaya Time Square.
Please tell me thats not true.
How many people go to Times Square that often!
sulks.
I do not mind a doughnut-related cake for my birthday. *hints

Its already a Weds and i must be more productive.

Watching that show makes me inspired and motivated (!)
At this rate i am all go go go.

BTW;
Its Mid april.
¼ of the year almost over peepoes.

another moutain

I brought a few munchkins out for sushi because its the season where members get to enjoy RM2 on all the sushis! Except the white and “stripe” ones.
I went with them yesterday and went with my mom today.
I am still not sick of it :)

Sadly i cannot follow college friends out for it tmr because i have classes and im too much of a geek to skip classes.
I never skipped classes besides Malaysian studies. Smiles.

Im having a few rough days/weeks
& i sadly cant blame it on period. Period.

I don’t know what seems to be that *click
If you get what i mean.

I am, nevertheless looking forward for a brief lunch tmr.
With my best friends.

With all this rummaging thoughts, i am in serious dire need of sleepovers.
Its the only medicine i can think of.

photo from Rach

BTW;
I went back to school to run some errands the other day only to have students (and teachers) stare at me like im some outcast.
Pn Zuana even looked at me and said "Hey I know you!".
How sad we're slowly getting erased O_O




AND YES;
Dear Xin Yi, Rebecca & Rachel (not the above).
Take care while you guys go to Kedah.
We'll DEFINITELY miss you guys & this is my actual first goodbye to a friends leaving to further their studies.
See you guys soon. :)

don't trust me

More photos from last year :)

hello panda

I kinda miss wearing the school uniform sniffles.

BTW;
I want it all!

i just cant figure it out

Back from a fun day of badminton.
im surprise how i manage to hit the shuttle with the badminton racket.
the last time i played badminton was back in standard 4 and i vowed i would NEVER play it again because i hated things that involved rackets due to lack of coordination and aim.

Right now I am that motivated to buy a set so i can go play with my family! since they like badminton.


Didnt sweat as much as I did when i played basketball or netball but the day didnt started with that aim.
We treated ourselves to A&W with fried chicken, burgers, floats, rootbeers, coney dogs, onion rings, and of course waffles!
Like i said we didnt start the day with the aim of burning fats.
ha





Still,
This weekend will be a let down.

BTW;
-

DA

yes a new pretty layout!
favorably a plain dark background ive been searching for.

Today was really fun cause,
we just finish our english exam that day so Miss Hana let us bum around from chit chatting in that horrible claustrophobic class, going to library to watch a comedy (but never happened because was fully booked) and having 29 students and a teacher whisper in the quiet area down in the library.
She let us go out 45 mins earlier anyways so almost the whole English A1 class went to Rock Cafe/Medan where we bonded.
I intro-ed to them a game which turned out okay, too big of a group to get the tension going.
But the punishments was hilarious.

My proper first class for the day started at 12.15pm and I had a very late but good hearty lunch :D

ohh! Pui Li has David Archuleta's tickets and hmmmmmmmmm...........
hee:D


omg its going to be a fridayyyyyyy tomorrow!
can you smell the stench of freedom?

BTW;
Off to papayas and math homework.

black

I had a nicely written post but it sort of drowned in my fuse with my stupidity.
Here’s a refreshed one.
English and Math test this week and over and done with!
ANOTHER math test next week or maybe the week after, and accounts assignment due 2 weeks from now.
The end of the semester is dawning nearer and im amazed of how time flew by just like that.
I have not gotten enough of college.


***
We carry our life like a routine,
Doing things subconsciously like looking at your phone the minute you wake up.
I don’t know about you but has there ever hit you or come a time you just question your purposes.
Like what do I want, what do I need.

For me it starts with a sinking sort of sick in the stomach feeling and then you just shut out everything at the moment and question; is any of this worth it?
Im glad it has reasonably reduced over the years but occasionally it gets to spins itself around me again.

I for one know exactly what I want in a “I-want- butter-not-cheese” way.
I never liked the idea of swimming along the current just because everyone does.
But i never said its incorrect.

But its the fact of what do I want from everything, what do I expect out from everything?
I throw myself into situations where I know has no ends to it.
Of things I know I already have the answer for but demand for you to tell it to me face to face.
Of things you’ve told me repeatedly that it becomes nonsensical yet to me it is still a happy drug, and assuring ticket to contentment and calm.

I demand for the thought but I am giving none.


What is it that I want?
Because my falters is making you wonder, ‘what is it that you want’.

I want everything you can possibly offer.

BTW;
craving for green tea frap

btw

It has been an indulging week.
I need to grab those sneaks.

Another week gone and here dawns Monday,
I have major Monday blues but thank God i come home at 12.15pm.
I am in major mood to go take a drive up/down for some shots.
Actually why not.

Its been a while since we met at that familiar location sipping on signature hot chocolate.
Whatever happened to weekly(s).
I haven’t seen you since that day and barely had a conversation with another you.

Random :
No. 1) Watched Fast and Furious 4 that day and its amazing how the subtitles came up with “Pantas dan Garang 4”.
Pathetic!
Iron Man to “Orang Besi” & The Day After Tomorrow to “Lusa”.

Sigh.

Just as I was getting ready Darren told me Han Qi was back from NS,
So the two bald boys indulged me with NS gossips.

No. 2) Finally had Carls Jr and I like :D

No. 3) Sista was back for the weekend and going back tmr.

No.4) I think the sound of thunder makes me sleep well. :O

No.5) Good Friday is next week :)

blow

So on Thurs, 2 April we had our MUFY games where my team played netball and we got third out of 5 teams playing.
We aimed for first or second but lost to both the Botswana team.
sigh.
The Africans won most of the MUFY games, like netball, basketball, soccer, futsal etc.
Insane.

Nonetheless training sessions and playing with these girls was awesome okay!

Im sorry I had to leave you guys in the middle of the second game :(
But thanks Pui Li for taking my place and May Sun for being the reserved player :)
Pui Li said my position made her sweat like a waterfall.
Your so cute lah Pui.


Did I mention I was captain?
*beams


Thank Liana for the pictures and who played so passionately till she cracked her ankle bone.
Pictures before the game when we were still fresh :D

Mei Li & Kimberly

haha super candid

Kim my morning buddy
& Mei Li on the phone

Liana, Pui Li, Kim & May Sun

the team.
This was after all the games when i already left.

and yes that is our hideous neon blue shirt.
the only good thing about it is, we are sort of compulsory to wear it every monday, so it saves my brain cells to think of what to wear every monday.
haha.


Off to prepare for math & english test this coming week.

BTW;
compulsive.
possesive.

when the clock stops

wish you were here

I had so much fun playing netball with the team today.
I haven’t been playing sports since last year.
Not kidding.
To my surprise my face feels sunburnt. But at 5.30 pm?!

I am the centre but my job isn’t that bad.
As much as I want to stay for the whole event tomorrow I cant :(
I’ll probably only get to play one the max two games, and i wont even get to attend the award ceremony or have lunch with them.
It sucks all the same.
Sigh.

I am feeling very blergh from everything.
Everything.

The fact that I want to whine but you are to busy to hear.
The fact that I want to throw a tantrum of everything shitty only to come home to have nobody listening.
The fact that you blame me indirectly for being a teenager.
The fact that I am not sure if this is really what I want.
The fact that I know it shouldn’t only be what I want.
The fact that everything seems only temporary.
The fact that you think that I think that im always right.
The fact that I think im always right even when I know im wrong.
The fact that I am stupidly complaining this right here right now.

BTW;
You should really listen

You have the ability to hurt me as much as you have to love me.
Im not sure what you see further.