id do it for you

Its been a while since i feel like bursting out like this and just scream
Why are you doing all this.

Everything that made me sure and certain is eating me up.
This hour this minute this second i cannot-

- - - don’t say enough
& i don’t know enough.

How am I what you claim, when everything else is right above me.


I really want this

loathing

our English class is the most relaxing class everrr.
On Monday our class was cancelled suddenly (with no replacemet in sight) & today we had a one-on-one session with Mr Emir on the essay we wrote recently, throughout the whole 2 hours today.
hehehuhaha.
Very fortunate to have gotten this small English class. (hehe)
From what i heard, the other's English class are much more hands down 2 hour lecture compared to our more comunication-friendly class.


see ya'll soon :)

hello

A little gloomy that I don’t have the easy way through.
Sigh, you’re lucky you have.
This has got to be my worst situation in the library of ------- ---- ---.
:(

Mmm, i wished you could read me-
More easily.
Because i need need need neeed neeeeddddd y.o.u.
'cause I dont like weighing you down.

BTW;
you didnt hear me

2 crucial days have gone my quick enough with assignments/projects dropping like bombs.
Was in college for 11hours yesterday. By college i mean in the academic area not in my hostel.
If you were to count the hours i am literally in college, lets see..more than 96 hours a week.


Im getting so sick of the food served here considering so little variety and that i eat lunch there everyday and occasionally dinner. The lunch people are awesome though, always ready for a chat.

And apart from all that?
The people here are nice.
I believe i haven’t given credit to the girls here that i see in the morning, day and night.
Although being a banana isn’t helpful because my friends are more towards mandarin than English, Im still trying to adapt.
Im thankful thought that we are all JPA scholars and in the same course which means we have all classes together. (except English)
The amount of pressure to be around them is like (insert word).
I am only praying that I get through all this the best I can.

Sundays are never easy when I have to head back here, but knowing that 2 more days is going to be Thursday exites me :))))
2more nights/1 and a half more day till im home again.

hello

Hello from Nottingham, Semenyih.
Got back here at approx 3 hours ago which was 7am.

My dad drove me here at 6+ this morning all the way here. :)
Just so i could spend another night at home.
sighs.


I am now at the computer lab doing some research for our tutorial presentation tomorrow and thursday while waiting for IT class to start at 10am.

its gonna be a longgggg day.

BTW;
Moob :)

tired and uninspired

reflection

Hello. :)


Had a pretty cool dinner on Friday which was this steamboat known as Shabu Shabu at Puchong with the peeepos.
My first time having Shabu Shabu and it was so funnnn.
It was very pricey (somemore i am dam kiam siap when is comes to food) but it was an “all you can eat” style thing.
It was RM 26.50 fyi.

Anyhoos, the food were on the conveyer belt, like the ones you see in sushi shops.
So you just grab the food you want and dump them into your own private pot.
yay.
Unlimited beef and quail eggggss. chomp chomp chomp



Before that, I headed over to Sunway UC to drop my letter or withdrawal and I was sooooo lucky to have bumped into Chloe, Felicia, May Sun, Pui Li, Liana and more other old coursemates just within that um, 15 minutes?
I MISS YOU ALL LIKE SHIZZ.


Im so tired right now but I have Social Science and Business tutorials to finish and read up.

BTW;
Putcha skates on ;)

silver lining

A teeny tiny um sneak peak of my room?
Getting use to life in a hostel and it aint so bad/
I occasionally enjoy the walks to and from classes.
Dislike the walk to classes of course because we're always "sprinting" there and end up sweaty.
Walking back would be better.


Im coming home tomorrow (!!)
excited as ever.


I feel very gatal to go out and do whatever.
Staying here has an upside which would be being able to save money.
Considering we have nothing much to splurge on.
So more to splurge back home. :P

BTW;
Prison Break is the bombbb

permanent

What you had plan.
For whom you had planned for.
When I had right fits you say, no my dear-
That is not for you to have.
But I am grateful with what youve given thus far & ecstatic to conjure what you may have brewed for the least ambitious though greatly hopeful; the most-est-
I am needy and an expectant. All the time, everytime.

It is so hard to read you when you ask me,
When you whisper to me.
When you can search me and flower a flaw.

I am dry and sore.
Pain and weak.



Father, here me speak

8 days

After 4 painful days and a sad weekend i am still sick.
pretty bummed about missing the opportunity to play for BRATs in the dodgeball championship :(
dammit.

My parents asked me to skip my classes tomorrow and come back on Tuesday instead but i cant.
I am too scared to be left behind in IT class :( i hate IT------



On a different note.
We caught Harry Potter the other day and I thought it was alright.
I wont say that i hated it, but I predicted it would have that dark aura and slow moving-ness since that part of the book was already gloomy.
So no, to me it didnt suck.

I would only recommend it to those who have actually read the all the books or followed all the previous movies though, or you'll be lost.
It would just be like watching a movie without the beginning and the end.


Its so funny that when I was out that day to watch the movie, i was completely fine and well but felt like crap the day after.
What is this.


oh, and dinner was the best because we finally didnt have to rush.
Its a good thing i bought tickets for before dinner.

I like talks.
I like to know new things even when ive already known you for so long.
:)


Lets hope that I recover asap and feel better for the weekend to come.



misses home

dont be

Im so piss right now im not sure if there’s any apparent reason.

Well no i didn’t get Swine thank God, but i have a throat infection.
If not treated, I may have problem talking/eating. Im surprised all this happened within one day.
I have a sky rocketing fever which is driving me nuts. Im all flushed red even my eyes.
On top of that, flu is starting to set in :(

Toilet is non functioning right.

So.pissed------

I should stop looking forward for the weekends so much because I get so piss and screwed when things don’t turn right.
This is probably my fever talking. (?)

You don’t ask questions even when I need you to.

raining more than ever

Home sweet home :)

Since i completed Malaysian studies in MUFY, i am now exempted from it, so I get to come back on Thursdays (!!)
But thats only for this sem.

Slowly getting use to life like this although sometimes I feel like a stranger to my own room .
Whatever it is, im glad to be back for the weekend to catch a glimpse of the loved ones.

Caught fever today :(
& and im quite worried it may be Swine. So i am going to the doc’s tmr.
I went online and checked, and apparently i have 7/9 symptoms.
I still find it just coincidence but just to put everyone at ease-

You know people usually ask the typical question whether i straighten my hair before (no)
But over here, people ask a different question-
They ask if i am a natural Brunette.
( !??!?!?!?!?)

My floor mates knocked on my door at 12am yesterday because they were hanging out in one of their room.
We ended up doing nonsense till 2am and i am so dead beat although class was at 11am today.
Nah, when tutorials sinks in, classes wont be starting that late anymore.
FYI, my intake is an accelerated one, so we have to catch up with April.

I still feel handicapped tho because my floor mates speak mandarin more than English.
Why am I a banana.........

Im coping.

BTW;
Excited to watch Harry Potter! :)

see

a glimpse of the way back to my hostel, the red building is where im staying.
Kapas Hall, the newest and furthest hall of all.
My room is not even in the picture because its much further right of the building.
Right at the end.

Classes commenced today starting of with IT and English.
Honestly i suck at computing knowledge, knowing i have to take it up makes me want to puke.


Will be joining the others for dinner later because ive yet to join them since i came here.
I was suppose to whip out my steamer and cook my own dinner in my room but nah, i need to bond heh.

We went to the TV room today and its so silly that they only have MTV, Star Movies and Star World but they dont have Channel V, HBO, Cinemax or E!.
Good to know i can still catch American Idol and such.

BTW;
Ive just realised, You've pre prep-ed me years ago.

get off

my idea ;P

the boy's idea

in kp's car with super cool movable seats!
on the way too....

....PD seafood

i remember they said there was abalone

sotong

lala

BUTTER PRAWNS (!!!!)

fish

& omg crab

Everyone minus michael with the taukes.
The bill was very very reasonable ;)

infamous jump shot

fly by

timed the walk from dorm to the faculties today and it was 10 minutes.
I thought they were exaggerating when they said 15 minutes in the book but i guess its true.
Most of the people that know me, know that i walk extra fast and i just dont realise it.
So it'll probably take 15 for others.

Good to know i have a daily exercise O_O

Got my time table and its actually pretty nice.

Apparently theres a ice breaking night on tuesday and a pool party on wed for freshies.
Not entirely thrilled.
I wish i was more sociable sigh.

My floor mates are from Pahang, Ipoh, Johor & Sarawak.
They consider me lucky because i get to go home during the weekends.

Waiting for momma dearest with sista and lunch as we speak.
I can watch the car pull over the curb from my room view.

let me try to take a picture.


oh too late their here yay

you make everything seem so small

Hello from hostel room #61.
Im lazy to elaborate about my first day of induction/orientation or maybe i just don’t want to talk about it.
I still cant believe this is ACTUALLY happening.

My room is fine,
I hate the blue/purple curtains that look like doctor scrubs.
Gonna shop for curtains soon.
Over the past few weeks/days i have been shopping around for stuff for dorm purposes, for example bed sheets, pillows, bolsters, night lamp, electric kettle etc because I still want a set at home and even petty things like a hair dryer and towel racks.
All things matters.

Slap me for saying this but i really really REALLY miss life back home. O_O
and i miss tv, i miss air cond (NO air cond here ok), i miss my dog.

Aside from my (sad) life and obvious emo ways,
I had a very happy dinner yesterday.
Im sorry i couldn’t meet everyone though as much as i wanted to, its just that this particular person is soooooooo hard to get a hold of.

I had cravings for Western for a long time, and he surprised me with----






Tony Romas (!!)
My first time there and the.food.is.soooo.goooddddd.

caption:
the 4 sauce bottles
pina strawberry swirl (super good)
bread and butter spread
grilled chicken salad
chicken, butter rice, baked potato and RIBSSSS (!!!!)
& the sofa with patterns that look like pubic hair. (HEEHEH)


Sorry lah pictures so ugly, I didnt want to bring a bulky camera cause I no mood already.
So pictures are taken with Nokia6120 which is looking horrible now.
Sidetrack: I want a Nokia E75 please and thank you.


The most embarrssing no-no happen when we were just about to leave.
I tripped and fell on my knees, you know the proposing pose.
and i was wearing....

this skirt huhuhu.

I am almost certain the lady waitress were laughing at me!




Sigh i miss home and i miss you and you and you.

BTW;
question no.3 & counting

chocolate covered

Second day, where the car got stuck in the sands under the 2pm sun.
Free tans for everyone.


Not entirely a bad thing though cause its the highlight of our trip and something to laugh about ;)
I was plain useless because I was getting a headache. (sorry)
as you can see in the second picture, i was resting from the sun and kay is posing (cheh)
nolah she came to ask me how i am *sayangs



Sun, sand and fun.

****

Yesterday i paid i little visit to MUFYs at college and sigh, how i wish i could go back-
Everyone talked to me as if they arent going to see me for the rest of their lives. *sigh

Then i had a private date with Kay to go Pyramid and we are two happy girls with plastic bags.
I am going to miss this :(



****

Hmm, since ive been hearing this from multiple people....
and how unaware and blurry its been. (haha)

I am leaving to Nottingham University on Thursday people.
THIS THURSDAY.

which is two days from now?


haha somehow everyone thinks im leaving much later.
tsk tsk.

I wish.

george sampson

Webcam picture freshly taken

Sitting in the garden on sleeping bags and yoga mats with sista and motha while on broadband yo! (yay)
For future dorm purposes in hostel (nay) :(



Another weekend gone just like that :(

aiden davis

Overwhelmed!

Very very moved.

More here;

Semi Finals

Finals

alcoholics

Chivas plus soda plus empty hotel

Thank you all for your kind words and concern :)
I am actually overwhelmed with the messages in the cbox whenever i come by.
Its really good to see supportive comments and encouragements even when I may not know you well enough for you to be so kind.
Thanks everyone.


I know its not going to be the same or how i imagined and sketched it out to be.
Its as if im left with this empty canvas and i have no idea of whats to come.

To know that this might be Your plan gives me a little tingle and much comfort.
But that- is IF it is Your plan.
Im a little afraid You've lost me.

BTW;
"Morning sunshine"
:)