when its over, thats the time-

busy busy weekend.
with all the inconvenient flu, sore throat and on-the-verge fever i manage to pull through and have fun :)

Happy Chap Goh Meh !



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Im in this mode/period of time/transaction time in my life (or multiple times) where I hate everything.
Please stay away. Please dont ask me why.
I am built like that.
I feel like doing something so cliche like going to some hillside and scream or just go write angtsy things and bottling them up and throw them at sea.
I miss the beach.



you are such a confusing creature.
as confusing as i am.
flutter, i have no idea.
so to speak.
I am just here.




i am the most ungrateful person.
i appreciate too little and hope for too much.
i complain to much. i compare to much.

BTW;
i take you too lightly

empty handed but alive in your hands

Yesterday night i felt sort of inspired to write about something, but now i cant even remember the slightest of it.
Annoyed.

just another

more on facebook but um still in the process.
Will be back !

now run far away

happy birthday.



:)

BTW;
You're the same as I. I think you need a kick.

Let go, jump in. What are you waiting for?

Birthday girl's little gathering.
More pictures up tomorrow because connection a little slow, and im grumpy.
No reason.












There's like a rolling bin of words & I cant the draw the right one out.
41 coloured papers 35 more to go,
Im glad im halfway there.

I have this outburst of nerves to just--
I feel like getting lost in nothing.
I feel like getting there.
I feel like crossing the ends without the stands.


I want a treehouse or an underground panic room.

Brush.





BTW;
Now im speechless, over the edge and just breathless

happy birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAY !!

bolds, , underlines, large fonts, darken colour.
check check check check.


I dont even know why im so excited, maybe cause she's the first one among us to turn 18 first.
sniffles.
Last year we celebrated it in school with cupcakes, then the year before that was at your house, and the year before that was a Shakey's and many many more.

Ive known you for 7 years!
gasp gasp. and im very glad to have known you too :)

Although we were never in the same class in secondary we are still fairly close thanking to all the koko activity.
sniffles again.

& it is somehow without a doubt that i sleep over/ go over to her place every month (at least)
Okay lah maybe every week also in secondary.
I think im going to feel empty when you go NS Kay, i think i'll miss your house haha.

Have a blessed 18 & we love you :)

;)

This post is solely insprired by Christine Ho.

She tagged a few of us in her facebook album.
She even entitled it, "Life in yellow shirt (prefect)"

I realise of all these years of knowing dear Christine, (roughly 6 years) she has never got angry once,
her definition of angry would be sulking and worrying but forcing a smile (if you'd realise)
She was my closest friend in class from Form 1 to Form 3, & our class mates would get confuse of our names, so they'd end up calling us "Justine" or "Chrismine" for short.
I miss you Christine :) !



God, Christine!
you just had to. & you did it very well :)

Perlantikan 08.
Our retirement trophies haha.

I remember this so well.
Camp Pemimpin where we were testing out the game we planned.

I just realise how much i miss everything back then.
I wouldnt mind rewinding and do everything again.
exactly as it is.

Back in the day I always wished i never applied to be a prefect.
because i thought i was missing out on more things.
After all these years I dont think ive regretted it anymore.

Heck i even miss those times where teacher unreasonably lecture us for wrong doings,
for the times they want us to come back during holidays to carry tables and chairs up and down four flights of stairs, for the times we scrape markings on tables and repainted them, for the times we'd have to put on 5 layers of skin for doing spot checks.

Right now at this very moment,
I miss being a prefect so dam much.


sniffles.

High school is irreplacable

dirty second hands

Happy Feb people :)
I just found out today that i'll be having a maths test this Valentines. sigh.
YES it is a saturday. & YES it does count for my final result for the semester.

Fell sick on Saturday when i was at my aunt's place for chinese new year.
As much as i miss playing cards and hanging out with my cousins, i really couldnt think properly anymore.
My dad drove me back right after i had food to eat and i literally k.o. on the sofa.
Still recovering.


So my whole Chinese New Year week was really good :)
Non stop everydays with family and relatives.
& Im happy i got to see my friends numerous times.
It was good to see familiar faces again.







Id like to think i can manage it all together.
with the things i love and the other stuff i have to carry.
Id like to think im making the right choices.
Id like to think you have my back.
because i have yours too.
Id like to think change is only subjective.
I like change. improvement, improvisation.
I like spontaneity.
Id like to think you get what i mean.

BTW;
you are my happy drug.
you keep me on the right track.

absence.

This is never easy.
Whatmore 5 more times.

This week will be one of the hardest.

blue

Pictures from my family's cny celebration.
Not in the mood to elaborate.















BTW;
39 days.

:(