truth

Ive always been waiting for “the right time” to talk about this but i guess there’s never really a right time.
Honestly I still cant face it and I guess I can only hope I will in time.

Ive been putting this on discretion but since eventually I’d have to go with it;

Im not continuing my second semester in MUFY let alone Sunway University College, which means I wont be going to Monash as planned either.

I recently had a call, the day I sat for the ASEAN exam about a month ago.
Ive been offered a scholarship from JPA for my foundation programme and degree, locally of course, since i did not get the overseas.
As great as all this sounds, I didn’t want it.

But it was all in place because I was offered a private prestigious university and got the course i applied for.
There wasn’t any reason for me to justify to say no to this.

Why ive been so bummed is because :

• Ive been assign to go to Nottingham University (Malaysia campus) in Semenyih which is about an hour drive from here, which also means I’ll be living in a hostel and only get to come back on weekends.
• Unlike any far colleges, Nottingham is pretty isolated and far from the city because of the space required for its structure and size. I heard its a 20 minute bus ride to the train station. :( Not to a mall or a city but the train station---------
  
• I am never good at staying alone and i hate being in new environments without a physical support system directly by me. I.am.alone.
• I hate having to leave MUFY in the middle of the year just when we all planned to have convenient breaks together.
• Staying in Kota Kemuning already had me going on and on about how far I am away from everyone. Now I am 1 hour away. O_O

Up till now I haven’t had the heart to let people know even when they ask me how Im doing in Sunway. :(
Im sorry I havent been honest or told most of you in person. I didnt have the heart to because not talking about it made it seem like it woulndt happen.

I know I have to suck it up and be the grown up and accept that eventually i have to go through this sooner or later, but this is too sooonnnn.

Weekends aren’t enough.

Now all that waking up at 6am, dealing with traffic every morning, arriving in college an hour earlier to get a parking, finishing late etc doesn’t seem to be that bad to me anymore.
Seriously, id take all that back.

I know i sound like a whimp for complaining and how spoilt i am for not wanting this, but i do know that I cant say no to this.
No is already not an option.

I guess im just very scared of what might be.

I still very much want to go to Sunway UC, and be around friends and family 24/7 here. :(




While all this is still new to me to absorb and accept and suit to,
Im leaving in less than 2 weeks which leaves me feeling speechless and the most alone ive ever felt.

lights out

Barbeque on the first night.

dad

Dad's Birthday on the 26th at Rakuzen!
I never realise how tan i got till i took that picture, two days after PD.
I believe its all fading away though, the tan lines are slowly disappearing no!




Then we suprised him with cake :) (at home)

hehe my current favourite watch :D

clover

***

Every now and then it bites.


This is where i want to be.




"you have to"

BTW;
Im only waiting for you for me

M.J.

The King of Pop (Michael Jackson) died at 1.14pm yesterday at age 50.
I guess thats a big eye opener.

BTW;
Happy Birthday pa!

av 90.5

Michael, Kay, myself, Darren

short short shortie

gas station

Just some of the pictures i celup from Michael's.


MUFY sem 1 results are out people !
I Thank God with 4HD's.
congratulations to others too :) :) :)

My lowest was English which was 84% and it was also the subject that pulled everyone else's grades down too.
I am too happy that my highest, Econs which is 96% (!!)
I started the sem with no knowledge of this new subject but now i can conclude, i love it heeehe :D

off to pan mee (?)

BTW;
the postman came today bearing that letter.

lock

I have been MIA because I tagged along to PD with the 10 other March Ausmats.
3 days went away in a quick snap but it was awesome pawsome all the wayyy.

I was super hesitant at the beginning because I am the only outsider but they were all too kind to encourage me to go. I am easily tempted.

• stayed at Casa Rachado and blasted music every night because we're the only guest there till our last day. Creepy.
• swimmed in the hotel's pool 5 times in 3 days.
  
• captain ball in the pool is super fun.
• kp's 6 seater car got stuck in the beach and everyone sunbathed in the beach trying to dig it out from the sand. well we did it after an hour :P sorry i wasnt much help, i was already getting dizzy from the hot sun. :(
• yummeh dinner for the 2 nights. BBQ and 6 course seafood. :D
• stole bread haha
• 600 pictures on the first day
• double after 3 days.
• cosy balcony chats while we fed mosquitoes.
• Kay lost her phone :( the waiters are liars!
• went sun tanning and feel goodddd haha. i can still smell the lotion :)
• glitter sprinkly jazz fingers.

***

anyway, just came back from watching Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen and i actually liked it :D
I didnt like the first movie and now i officially have a remapped view of the whole thing.
The whole cinema clapped at the end of it which was totally appropriate and agreeable.

I actually want to go watch it again. HEHEHE.

I know i dont have to tell to go check it out.

have fun enjoying it!

pop

Thank you Darren and Lynette for scheming a surprise for me. (yesterday)
It was fairly predictable but I knew it wouldn’t always be what i predicted.

Apparently he was suppose to take me to a nice place for supper which has super chun lights and Ive never been there before. So i was suppose to put his jacket over my eyes and close my head from the highway as soon as I exited Kota Kemuning because it was “surprise” to see the amazing lights and place.
I went with it because i love surprises :D

He just had to park a little further while i had the jacket over my head and walk through Taipan and into Secret Recipe and tadaa everyone was there.

Couldnt open my eyes because it was too bright, you know the, after you close your eyes for too long feeling.

But i cried because I love you all!

Thanks Christine, Shing Vee and Azmi for the on the spot gifts.
:)

BTW;
pack!

orange

Kay, Han Qi & I during 5B's reunion.
HEH me and HQ are invaders.

I am stoning here thinking if i should wash my hair.

Speaking of hair, I recently had my hair snipped and even came back to trim my fringe shorter, but for those who don’t know, my hair grows super fast .O_O
It is now so longggggggg and i just want it to be short for a while.
Maybe this is why i am so short, my height hormonal juice decided to settle in my hair roots instead of my height elongation.
Sad.
I might have to cut that fringe Lynette had :P

The nette and the yak slept over my place yesterday.
Cal and I went over to Kel’s for BBQ ! (thank you) omzg super awesome food. Ribs ribs ribs.

anyhoors, We talked and i suck and staying awake.
Why is it when im alone i have sleeping issues, and when i have guest i sleep in a snap.

They woke up with me at 6.30am cause i had to fetch annoying sister (yes you) to usj.
So these two sweet friends teman-ed me (maybe because i am ------- soon) and we had morning yum cha till 9.30am where i had to go home for --------- (to be continued)

BTW;
single ensuit

red at a legal age

This was before all the food and alcohol arrived.

jeng jeng jeng.
& then i went sun tanning. :O

I had an awesome birthday dinner with my high school girls (wah now have to categories friends already cheh) at Las Caretas and THANK YOU Lynette for planning it for me. :)
We shall hang out more soon.

Thank you Lynette, Rachel, Leona, Sueen and Kay for laughing with me and at me the whole night.
And thank you Darren for fetching me from and back to my house.
I would have probably died on my birthday should i have drove that treacherous night. :D

We haven’t had a dinner like this in a long time but by the end of the night we reached tons of picccass.
There are more from other camera’s but here are the ones from mine.

rachel & sueen

big Long Island for starts

part of Fajitas

er nachos and i forgot

Lynette Cheng!

then Kay ( "Lynette's boyfriend" PFFT :P) came.

They brought out the cake and a shot of tequila.
Notice i was already starting to heat up from the Long Island alone!
I manage to down it and felt the burnnnn in my throat.
After that i seriously.couldnt.stop.smiling.
I mean i was aware and conscious (not drunk) but my face muscle wouldn’t stop smiling.
The more they laughed at me the harder it was to stop.

& the birthday girl gets to wear the big sombrero

omg my camera made pretty leona look like a man

rookie. !!
should have gave a macho face :D :D

They took a picture of us and printed it out for me too,
and notice the girl they drew,
I'll give you a hint, its someone you know. hehehuhaha.

edit: Lillian, Sueen, Rabin & Darren!
the steak is still available! if you noticed.



Im not sure if i was high but i told Lynette with super fascination , "wow why look like me one" because i thought the card already had the face on it.

i dont know why they gave me the guitar as a prop haah

Rachel's newest pose

The bartender came out and gave me another glass of tequila pop.
I drank the whole thing and actually did feel fine.
I meant i was fine walking to the car and camwhoring in it.

Not until the end of the night. Heh.

tequila and sprite

gulping

finished

haaaa i look super retardedly happy.

While waiting for Darren i accompanied Kay to Starbucks for her something to keep her awake for her next day exam.
See how camera deprived we are.

We were in the same kindy concert, primary and secondary okay!

i love love love my oversized purple flower ring :D

Kay, ring, Rach

So after excessively and excitedly telling Darren of my eventful night, i could feel my food up to my throat.
I ended up keeping my eyes closed and praying i wouldn’t throw up in his car. HEH.
Thank God I got home in time because you know lah.
My family even laughed at me hmph.
I KO-ed by 11pm.
But no hangover yay.




i always wondered how was my alcochol tolerant level.
I guess being drunk wouldnt be an issue because i really wasnt ! ( i know thats what they all say right) but puking was and is the worse feeling. gags.

I wouldnt mind having another less saturated shot of tequila though :P
the burn felt pretty good.


thank you you amazing girls for coming,
i love everyone one of you for making it despite the next day of college.
im glad we did it. and definitely more years to come.

tight hugs.